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The Sharp Edge of Love Introduction Be warned! You may find a part of yourself craving what follows in this book, or you might stop reading in disgust. I wonder which it will be. Any secret sexual desires lurking in your own heart? You'll likely find them here, if you have any perversity at all. The in-depth accounts in this book are true. They reveal in decadent, poetic and graphic detail, a generally hidden aspect of female nature - a craven desire to be treated like a submissive sex slut, and more, or less, as the case may be. Please don't get excited, as the politically correct tend to do, and confuse sexuality with sexism. This book has nothing to do with oppressing anyone. It has nothing to do with sexual abuse. Quite the opposite, in fact. Also, try to keep an open mind about the language and role-play personas depicted in this book. Remember they are of a consensual nature. Some women find the "drama" of erotic submission quite a turn-on, and enjoy taking on the role of a "slut" and much more in many cases. Not all women are submissive, obviously. Some are quite Dominant in the bedroom and/or the boardroom. Some women definitely aren't sluts! With the onerous social taboos against being honest and proud of your sexual identity, it's often a surprise to discover someone's private perversity(Don't you just love to see one of those ever holy evangelists or righteous political figures get exposed in some lewd and scandalous behavior!). Most individuals keep their sexual truth hidden deep in the shadows of shame and guilt. In current society, with its current definitions of "normal", an individual's sexual tastes are generally required to be kept secret, sometimes even from oneself. Not so, in the true stories of the women written about here. I solemnly and secretly desired women like this all my life. I've always known I needed a woman with an edge to her sexual passion. What a shock to discover that at last, thanks to the Internet, I could have what I always wanted. I am of a genre of sexual preference known as D/s, Dominance and submission. Those of us who are in this lifestyle perform rituals of BDSM (bondage, discipline, sadism, masochism). People's tastes and styles in this realm cover a broad spectrum. I am a Dominant. What does that mean? Many might judge it depraved and loathsome. You might find I lift the veil masking your own dark desires. I train, mentor, or have relationships with women who, by their free choice, desire to serve as a sexual bottom, submissive or slave, for their Top, Dom or Master (the distinctions between these three will be explained within the stories in this book, or see the resource list at the back of the book.). These women seek erotic torment, mental subjugation and spiritual fulfillment through their submissive desire to serve, sexually and otherwise. How pleasing it's been to discover and meet women who offered themselves for erotic pleasure or punishment, like a sacred gift, or a total slut. I've had contact through the Internet with over a hundred submissive women, and met with a variety of them for play, as we call it, who desired to serve a Master for life, or who were just out for some anonymous thrills. There are millions of people exploring this clandestine lifestyle, or numerous other fetishes, on the net and in real life. The Internet has spawned the first safe environment for the repressed sexual shadows and fantasies of the human psyche to gush forth. It has allowed individuals the opportunity to reveal aspects of themselves that have remained hidden all their lives. The anonymity allowed by the Internet lowers the barriers of shame, guilt and judgement, that has retarded the sexual truths hiding within many individuals. These truths, in my judgement, are a rushing torrent that won't be held back, a torrent of honest sexual liberation, expression and exploration. Millenniums of repressed sexual energy, the urge to get kinky, are about to emerge in the new millennium, despite the strong backlash likely, by paranoid and hypocritical moralists. Sexuality has become the free-wheeling frontier of human personality. I like to call it Y2Kink! At first, I was startled at how readily and easily many of the women I've met surrendered themselves to me, body, mind and soul. I would admonish them for their imprudent surrender. Only after they had, of course! I knew they could trust me. (There are basic safety guidelines that cover ways to make arrangements for a first meeting, posted on many D/s sites. See Appendix.) Barely knowing me, trusting their instincts, they gambled with their desire. These women sought the feeling of surrendering control, being told what to do. They sought to be bound and gagged, spanked and whipped, adorned with nipple clamps, slave collars, eager to fulfill my most perverse pleasures, and their own dark desire. They've included lawyers, engineers, artists, entrepreneurs, college students - all seeking mental, physical and spiritual subjugation, on some level. A majority were newbies (no or little R/T [real time] experience). It was always a thrill to see how far these women were prepared to venture in the first meetings, though not amazing. Most, like myself, had been preparing all their lives, after all, on one level or another. Once they found a safe environment and the trust of a compassionate Dom, there was nothing holding them back. I hope to glorify these women as a group, though not all, individually, were so glorious. Some were as noble and mythic in the pursuit of their dark passion as Joan of Arc. It has been significant for me to discover on this path, that the gift of submission can be the foundation of a poetic, ritualized love, deeper than any I could have ever known. This is what I seek now, my submissive soulmate, though the sluts are always a pleasure. The stories told here describe real encounters, told through correspondence and journals, as I've searched for my ideal submissive soul mate. Of the many encounters to date, I have chosen four that are the most personal and intimate, and give you a well rounded glimpse of this secret world. While three of these four encounters did develop through the Internet, one special relationship in my local community came about through a poignant irony. I met her through circumstances surrounding my bitter and painful divorce. Circumstances that were designed to humiliate and destroy me publicly, by viciously outing me to my family, friends and professional associates. It was directly through my ex-wife's efforts in this regard, that this special woman approached me. How this happened and all that resulted from having my sexuality portrayed in such a twisted light are woven into the encounters I describe here. These four episodes contain all the elements of life: forbidden sex, elaborate hoaxes, true poetic love, pathos and tragedy, being "outed", scorned and ostracized by friends and family. These stories are about heroic, exuberant freedom-seekers exploring the true nature of their sexuality. While this book inevitably has to reveal my own secrets, and my own trials to get "clean" about my sexuality, my revelations are simply ephemeral. The forbidden passions of the women described herein are what's interesting. I get to be the leading man, or the dark, desirable, forbidden Lord, but they are the stars. I ask you to be patient as I take you on this path to discover what I did - extreme sex, decadence, fantasy, romance, passion, tender soulfulness, treachery, and betrayal. Come with an open mind, before you judge. It's just life really, but drawn in vivid, tantalizing flavors. If you can observe the events described here without prejudice, there is much to discover, maybe even about yourself. In part, these encounters describe the mythic, ritualized romance between a man and a woman, as male Dominant and female submissive. These dynamics can go the other way, Femdom/malesub or be between the same gender. Some people, called Switches, go both ways. This book deals exclusively in the realm of Maledom/femsub.(Note: There is a convention that came about on the Internet chat rooms of capitalizing references to the Dom and using lower case for the sub. Not all adhere to this, some are totally opposed to it, as presumptuous and without meaning. When used by those who do, it is meant as a form of respect and designation of position. I personally enjoy the ritual nature of this formal protocol. Most of the writing here will use this convention) The exchange of power between a Dom and sub is something, I believe, that is at the core of our spiritual identity. Something that was in the natural order a very long time ago. It still seems a very important part of our psyche, though in modern times, it's buried under layers of guilt, shame, political correctness and the hypocritical and mysterious "sexual norm". What the "norm" is has always eluded any clear definition. In the U.S mainstream, it is surreptitiously defined in shadow. It is taboo for adults and even marriage partners to comfortably discuss or explore any of their true fantasies, and other kinky "abnormal" desires, without risking severe judgement or ostracization from one's family, friends, co-workers, or either the political right or the left. The BDSM culture in particular, is generally viewed right down their with and even below rapists, murderers and child molesters. It should be noted however that the climate is slowly changing to match the times. The American Psychiatric Association recently removed consensual BDSM activities between adults from its list of pathological behaviors. D/s as a lifestyle preference is about where the gay movement was forty years ago. It is my belief that the repression of one's true authenticity, sexual and otherwise, has led to the acting out of destructive and increasingly violent behavior in our society. Our culture allows and accepts an incessant bombardment of titillating and provocative imagery, through the mainstream media, while expecting individuals to maintain an outmoded posture of prudish propriety, no matter what the truth of an individual's sexuality might be. This is my opinion: Nonconsensual violence against another is the most perverse form of abuse. Playing a role, exploring the drama of our darkest urges, with the willing consent of an adult partner is the healthy and exhilarating foundation of Dominance and submission. I don't pretend to know much about, nor am I attempting to describe the full range of the D/s lifestyle in this book. My style is personal, evolving, as are most others. I borrow what is pleasing to me across the spectrum. My credo is tolerance, though intolerance and sometimes vehement disagreement are still imbedded within the BDSM community. These are primarily cyber turf wars - my kink is OK and yours is not. Egos battling on the field of minutiae. Hang out on any BDSM newsgroup for a while, and you'll get the idea. There's no escaping the mammalian, territorial nature of humans, I guess. On the whole, though, the ideal of tolerance is still strong within this lifestyle. My view is that when I'm this perverted, who am I to judge? D/s is a generally noble pursuit practiced by people from every political, social and economic spectrum. The code of honor and trust is preserved in three sacred words - Safe, Sane and Consensual(SSC). It seems there are always efforts to etch doctrine into stone in any culture. For me the notion of SSC is to be defined by the individuals involved in the activity, not by any group or individual claiming their truth as the one true way. But be cautious. Having someone include SSC in a personals ad does not automatically mean that they are safe, sane or consensual. (you'll see SSC encoded in most ads on D/s personals sites, should you ever happen to look one up. Scoundrel that I am, I've listed a lot of interesting sites that contain personals and other scene info, in a resource list at the end of the book. NOT NOW! Read the book first. You can also go to my website, http://www.GalensRealm.com). There is a public BDSM "scene" in most major communities, worldwide. Attending munches (casual socials that welcome "newbies") and local events are a good way to plug into your local scene. Most people, for good reason, choose to "play" privately. There are hundreds of ways to meet others, from personals sites, chat rooms, bulletin boards etc., for those who wish to explore in the safety and anonymity of the Internet. Getting involved in the world of Dominance and Submission is a lot less risky than say Skydiving, Base or Bunji Jumping. Of course, anything you undertake involves risk. In my experience, if you follow common sense and study the numerous guides to safe meeting on the Internet or in Real Time, the risks are almost nil. Statistically, you'll find the numbers of "battered" submissives are few and far between, compared to the number of "battered" spouses living under the guise of "normal" vanilla relationships. Most people in the D/s lifestyle hold sacred to the principles of Safe, Sane and Consensual conduct. If something about this lifestyle stirs that hidden place where your deepest fantasies lie, know that you are just like millions of other people who have been shamed into feeling it is wrong to be this way. Now, maybe for the first time, should you step into the pages of this book, know you are among friends. Your fear, shame, guilt, doubts, questions, shock and every perverse desire of a consensual nature are all welcome here. It takes tremendous courage to explore the realm of the D/s lifestyle. The challenges of integrating one's vanilla appearance socially, with the delicious, secret life, are many. I've had to face an unfortunately large number of these challenges personally. I've survived them all (so far). Even though some of my experience has been personally devastating and painful in the moment, what I've learned has aided me in living my life with authenticity, dignity and passion. The encounters described within are really about discovering and living your truth, no matter what obstacles stand in your way. If I can help another Dominant, submissive, or any freedom-seeker find their way to the truth, sooner than I did, that is a cause I pursue with a passion. |
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